Am I enough?
Throughout my life I have struggled with this question, three simple words, am I enough? The answer however is never as simple as a yes or a no sadly. I have always considered myself a go-getter, someone who strived for greatness and was often my biggest critic. This was not always a bad thing because it drove me to be the best version of myself I could be, but it also made me feel like I could do more or be more.
I can see this manifest in so many aspects of my life, my marriage, my work, my friendships, my studies and my role as a mother. The reality however is, if you met me you would not believe a word I am saying because as so many people have told me "you look so confident, I wish I was as confident as you are". Well you know what they say, fake it till you make it! I feel like life's unrealistic pressures adds fuel to this insecurity fire most of us have within. Social media will have you believe that the amount of followers quantifies your popularity which must mean your enough, or the size of jeans you wear quantifies your healthy lifestyle which must mean your enough, or the IQ of your children quantifies your enough as a parent but are these really what defines you? In my opinion HELL NO! You are defined by your actions, not your followers, by your love for your children and ensuring they are raised to be responsible and caring citizens and that they feel safe and loved constantly, by the way you treat others not by the way you look.
The world is fast paced and full of external pressures so why add your own onto you? I truly believe in the reality that everything happens for a reason and you are where you are meant to be given the choices you made. So if this is where my maker has placed me then yes I AM ENOUGH! I am enough of a wife, I am enough of a mother, I am enough of an employee, I am enough of a friend, I am enough of a daughter, I AM ENOUGH. So next time you find yourself questioning whether you are doing a good enough job at life, remember you are the chosen one for your life and say it with me, I AM ENOUGH!
I can see this manifest in so many aspects of my life, my marriage, my work, my friendships, my studies and my role as a mother. The reality however is, if you met me you would not believe a word I am saying because as so many people have told me "you look so confident, I wish I was as confident as you are". Well you know what they say, fake it till you make it! I feel like life's unrealistic pressures adds fuel to this insecurity fire most of us have within. Social media will have you believe that the amount of followers quantifies your popularity which must mean your enough, or the size of jeans you wear quantifies your healthy lifestyle which must mean your enough, or the IQ of your children quantifies your enough as a parent but are these really what defines you? In my opinion HELL NO! You are defined by your actions, not your followers, by your love for your children and ensuring they are raised to be responsible and caring citizens and that they feel safe and loved constantly, by the way you treat others not by the way you look.
The world is fast paced and full of external pressures so why add your own onto you? I truly believe in the reality that everything happens for a reason and you are where you are meant to be given the choices you made. So if this is where my maker has placed me then yes I AM ENOUGH! I am enough of a wife, I am enough of a mother, I am enough of an employee, I am enough of a friend, I am enough of a daughter, I AM ENOUGH. So next time you find yourself questioning whether you are doing a good enough job at life, remember you are the chosen one for your life and say it with me, I AM ENOUGH!
This touches me so much I see myself in these words.wow Sam amazing amd thank you
ReplyDeleteI am so pleased that it touched you, that is all I desire from my writing, it is an absolute pleasure and thank you so much for taking the time to give me feedback Janine.
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